Now I can life my old life.. I think..

My 178days,

Ah~ Now everything feels so much lighter.. Cause my days on that love was way long.. I used to not get enough sleep because of the dreams I keep getting late at night because of her.. Feeling so miserable because of missing her, feeling so depressed when she just walk away, feeling so sick when she just angry at you.. It's like everything matters.. So badly it hurts till my very heart and soul.. and now everything coming to an end.. Wah, even the first day of Pmr.. I was still wondering whether is she coming to say goodluck or not.. Apprently she didn't and made me so moodless the whole freaking Bm test.. Chis.. This prove how powerful is love to make someone lose their mind and lose control..

And now Valentine is so near, should I or should I not decide to find a new Gf? Someone told me today, "Don't treat someone so well, cause by the time u find a new one you will regret doing all this for that someone.." Maybe she is right.. and I do need a close companion sometimes.. Cause now everytime I'm sad or depressed.. There is no more sound where this person come and cheer me up.. but I just can't take the fact of getting a new gf and being dump again.. It really hurt and I know I will never love another girl like this anymore.. Which mean my coming love will just be a normal love.. Nothing more special bout it.. Yet I'm afraid I might hurt that girl... Everything is link.. and now I'm thinking whether should I or should I not get a gf.. Maybe just not.. maybe..

"Change for the better, live for the mightiest, and triumph over the pasts" My Quote for today..

~Ryuuku~

I miss those days.. When we're sitting under that freaking shelther, cursing that freaking you know what.. Haha..

My replies said:

Now you have mention it, I do miss those days..

Reli I do..

KFC Day, then devil's day.. Then still go on..

Haha..

Your right.. I prefer being your daddy more.. Haha..

Can bully you more.. Wahahaha~

Then kena pinch pinch back..

Swt.. *Snap* Haha..

And the two finger gesture.. Haha..

So long lo never see you do..

Maybe cause we rarely talk even..

And to know it now it's not really that late ey..

Well off we go the melboury bush.. the melboury bush.. Haha..

So.. Can we be friends again? Best friend I mean..

Pinky? Haha.. Im so kiddish..

Start all over again like 3 years ago you were hanging on to the tiang.. Haha..

I still rmb the face of yours when u found out im cikgu Lucy's son..

So damn freaking funny.. and Lina volunteer to invite me to the dinner..

*whoosh* Snap snap.. Haha..

Just forget bout the past yeah.. Like you said..

P.A.S.T

Positively As DE Suckiest Thing.. Haha..

Distance is a scalar( measure-able )

Can be change one ma.. Minus minus the distance..

Haha.. No more lo right? Hehe..

Your are my sunshine,

my only sunshine,

you made me happy when skies are grey..

You never know dear,

How much I love you,

so please don't take my sunshine away.. XD

Er.. wrong song.. Haha..Janji la shine kan? XD

Wah.. Banyak I tulis liao..

Hehe.. Buai-buai..

Ryuuku~ Yan Ng! XD

For this love..

Why can’t you just take me back as the one you love?

Why..? I couldn’t understand,
For I have truly love you with all my heart,
Till my very bones,
My heart beats till the ocean beds could hear...
But why can’t you...

Maybe for you I’m nothing...
Just another boy in your life that likes you,
And when you start to love another,
Could you imagine how sorrow and bitter my heart encounters?

But I guess you and I know well,
We’re off and never to bound again...
Maybe this feeling of mine to you meant nothing at all...
Nor the single attachment could be found.

Maybe I just meant nothing to you,
Not even a place in your very heart...
And when you turn around and leave,
It hurts even though you just turn for a glimpse..

If you can just know how much you mean to me,
I’ll just silently walk away..
Until the day you began to notice me again..

FallenAngel..

Sob..

I flunk my addmaths.. it's so stupid.. I don't know what to do now.. I'm feeling so frus !!! Why!! I punch that freaking wall till my hand hurts edi.. Yan!! Why r u so stupid?! Can't you be any smarter?! It's just simple addmaths.. It just functions!! Fg(x)=2x+1 nia ma.. This one is so easy and how come I don't know how to do.. I Flunked !! I Flunked badly!!

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Yan, just go die.. you good for nothing boy..

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sob..

Ryuuku..

Day 172, Sunday.. Not so hot not so cold..

Valentine so near, yet my couplED friends keep asking me to go out and like who don't know I'm single here. Ha ha. Of course I didn't expect to find one in a matter of 172 days before. ha ha. but Life goes on, and I will celebrate my Valentine with.. I don't know.. Alone la..
but knowing it's a freaking Valentine and you have no one to celebrate with.. It kinda hurt le..
Macam la tidak ada org mau u like that.. Haiy..
and so, there is never a hope for me to gain back what been done.

Weee.. So jiwang now.. I'm not afraid to confess that the girl I once together I still Loves her. It just a matter of days before she went of to Aussie and never I can see her again. Probally decline my parent wish to go Teknik for the sake of seeing her for one last year is worth it. couldn't believe I stand up just for that. but I know, she will neveer notice me and so will for the rest o my life..

and so..
~Ryuuku~