mok so cham a..

Haiy.. My mok only got 4As.. 3 Bs.. Why.. Sejarah and Geo I didnt study la.. Atleast got 70 both.. But Bm.. Haiyo.. why 70 also? Celaka.. I don't care la.. PMR !!! must be A !!! HMPH !! Study hard !! Study Smart !! I must !! ~yan ~

A month away from you..

Been a month, Now's its 16 of September 2006..
One month ago on this same day, she broke up with me..
I feel so defeat when she told me..
Knowing she still like that cool guy..

Nothing more I can do,
to repair this situation,
cause love cannot be force,
and cause I respect her decision..

Sometimes, I really felt hurt..
I feel like screaming,
shout everything out..
And let it burst through my lungs..

sometimes I felt like kicking it away,
but the more i wanted,
the more it hurt me,
and end-ed up hurting myself..

Now my life is so empty,
so silent,
that a needle drop can be heard,
and a surrounding of sorrows..

I couldn't change it,
only to smile so it will break away,
though this is so hurt-ful,
hoping it won't be the same anymore..

I letting everything go today,
letting the words we share to break away.
letting the world we created falls,
And letting my love go..

Haha.. This is the result of learning piano without going to classes..

Haha.. This is one of the Cronology of me playing the piano.. Lol... First.. It was fun..
I spent nights and nights just to learn this song for.. Er.. got la.. Haha.. First it was so hard because I'm not used to play two handed piano.. But i didnt give up.. And manage to play breakaway.. Lol.. To remember this moment.. I took a picture of myself playing it proudly.. ( who don't, I manage to learn how to play that song by my own with no piano learning background and on my own somemore and that piece is not an easy piece to play yeah know.. )

Ok.. See.. I'm playing the piano !! Haha.. Thought it's not as nice as er Richard Clederment.. Lol.. Duh.. but atleast la.. ok as time go on, I manage to play some other song.. Thought it was hard for me.. I even planned to play the songs I learnt for nights on her birthday but no more.. so now.. I gave up in learning piano anymore.. Lol..

And this is how i look like after that.. Lol..
It's a bit absurb but atleast it's in my cronology.. Haha..










And now,
I'm reaching back to what I'm suppose to do.. My dreams somewhere out there.. Haha...











haha.. the end.. XD

963 !

Atenttion !! : This blog is created for the sake of making a joke and not for real.. Her real information will not be exposed and this is not to be taken seriously.. PLease ! Be advised that this is just a joke.. PLease be reminded.. Thank Q..

Well.. This is a story about a girl who live somewhere in kuching..
She was a cherish and happy girl, walking at the centre of Kuching.. but due to some condition.. Something happen and she have been infected with this disease..

Sometime at 7.00Pm last night.. We spotted her disease start to attack her and we recognise this disease as the "singing" disease, This disease or more to known as "Katak-katak singing" as called by our scientist, Dr. Emmanuel ( Just for fun ) It is said that if this condition goes on, she might in the end face problem.. stop singing and fear most.. She might.. NOOOOOOOOO !!!!!! Sing for the REST of he life !! Ahem.. Continue on...

Till now, our scientist Dr. Emmanuel still unable to find the cause for this deadly disease.. For precaution, we have the authorities arrested her and kept her in a special cell we build at XXX island.. Her Bf, Joshua Voon is very upset bout this inncident and have devoted his life by staying together with her in the cell.. We fear that this disease can spread through air and might infect our brave scientist in working but he, didn't give up and embrace himself for the worst..

Meanwhile,
We have stopped her from singing by supply her with laptops.. The results was promising but after a while.. She acted strange and began to jump around.. This is the prove...



SEE !!! Its so... Frightening !! May God Bless her...

Without choices, her bf risk his life by singing her lullaby.. Miracle, she fell asleep and till now, she still sleep like a baby..









OKay.. To keep our scientist identity under cover. He, Dr Emmanuel have created a potion which can turn him into some other form and now working under his full force to help this poor girl in need.. But shockingly, we found something out of the ordinary and was caught on picture..

Wow.. His research on human tranformation is so perfect that this picture look so real..
*Applause applause...*
2 month later..

Yes !!! I finally find the cure !! Wahaahahhaha ~ The formula !! Wahahahahaha~ I need to give this to someone.. Before.. ( bang !! )

2 days later, Dr Emm was found in a coma and now being cure at the USM hospital.. Mrs Emm was there to take care of him ( Stefa........... ) XD Fear not, with her extra-superb-lihai-gentle-horrifying care, Dr. Emm will be alright.. I guess... huhu..

DOCTOR !! DOCTOR !! His awake !! (Mrs Emm shouted)
Operation room...
*moment later..*

(Dramatic scenes, Mrs Emm doing the "will he be okay" scene while Me and the rest of our crew was eating popcorn watching.. Wahahahah~)

(Door opened with a loud bang)
Mrs Emm:"Don't bang the door !! I hate that !! (Then she gave out a small cough and start to cry and dramaticly walk towards the doctors.. )

In the wad..

Who am I ? Where am I? Arrrgghh !!!

*watch out for our next episode.. Will Dr Emm get his memories back..? Will Mrs Emm ever gonna get back her beloved Husband? XD Will The girl be cure..? Will Joshua ever be free again? Find out in our next episode in 9.6.3 !!

Er..

Sigh~ I'm feeling so sick.. Mok is on, my head is like a ton heavier.. So much pressure, so much stress.. N I'm stil smiling.. Hahaha... Why? So I won't feel as bad as it look..
wah.. My Legs so painful, drop down.. Aduh.. Nevermind la.. Haha.. Wow... KHB a ~ Aduh.. Study la.. Continue after a while..

I'm lying to myself as this would be the only way..

Hmm.. Its have already been month since we broke up.. but I still can't forget her.. Maybe It's just me..

Well.. This is the first time I really love someone.. So I'm trying to be as serious as I can be, maybe because of that I still can't forget her.. Now.. I'm trying to cover my real feelings.. It hurts, but its for her good.. For she still love "him" so much, I won't want to add any more pressure for her.. For she's still young, naive person.. I hope she will find her way out one day..

Today, My friends told me something that she told him.. Something that make my heart question.. she said, "we broke up and it's not my fault, so I don't feel anything.." I was shocked.. Ok.. Maybe it is my fault.. Haiy.. Sometimes, looking at her picture makes me miss her even more.. The "R" she gave me.. I couldn't bare to even put it away from me.. I guess I just being stupid..

Pretending to laugh infront of her, pretending that I'm ok without her, pretending that I'm still that one person she meet before, pretending that I like another girl.. It does HURT.. But I know if I don't do this, I might make her life much more miserable, and since her semester is so near.. I won't want to add any more pressure for her.. for she still love that kid in Sibu.. I know I have lost since the beginning.. People ask me why I don't hate her, yet I still care so much for her.. All I can answer is.. I do hate her but deep inside.. I know I can't.. No matter what I do.. I won't be able to hate her.. I still want to care for her.. Like I always do..

~Yan~
I'm sorry..

Starting this to end my past..

I'm starting a new blog.. So that what have past could go away as this blog will make me turn over a new leaf.. A new future.. Sometimes, I'm just trying to forget everything but I just can't.. So.. Hope this could help..

~FallenAngel~